I just found this little piece that I wrote way back and used it to mark my place in a book. It had no dates but I’d guess that I wrote it sometime in late 2010 or early 2011 –judging from the little lists and the rent reminded I scribbled on the other side of the paper. I had a very emotional morning. I find that when I had such moments
It was about mid-day. I couldn’t help but wonder why the sun wasn’t out; and in vain because everyone around thought it was as normal as it gets. The air was filled with silence but the annoying, resounding echo in your ears…. I gently walked the street of gray wondering where I was and how I got there. The thoughts in my head kept screaming questions: what happened to everyone? What happened to the sun, laughter and energy… had everyone in my world become zombies sealed to a fate of gloom? Words couldn’t come out of my mouth even if I tried…. Then as if in defiance to my questions, the trees shook violently and the leaves fell gently until the branches lay bare. It was an unending story till I forced myself to be a sedated zombie too and days turned to months and centuries….
It was mid night, walking the path I’d threaded a million times. Starring into the sky, I was now sure the escape that lay up there was now shut forever. My gaze turned straight ahead of me. Then I heard something – a whisper. Not the echoes I was now used to, but a soft melodious alien language. I listened again…”beiñe” and I looked up. Almost immediately there was a surge of blinding light and I shut my eyes in response. Then again…”beiñe” and when I opened my eyes a second time, I saw it. A radiance untold, morphing into shapes I couldn’t describe. Most of all feelings that surged in- some long buried and others oh so new! And a promise, an escape, all hope… I reached out and my feet lifted from the ground, slowly and slowly the tension heightened until I touched it. I felt the layers fall, I could almost talk again.
Slowly and slowly breathing every moment. The grounds shook and feelings exploded. I lost my grip and began to fall back… the light faded and I fell. I fell back and opened my eyes and I was lying next to you, in your arms.
Then I smiled.